Waiting game

I feel as if my next words are going to sound ungrateful, but they are how I feel right now: I am so sick of being pregnant!

Don't get me wrong, I have thoroughly enjoyed this pregnancy. I have savored each and every moment of what has been happening to my body. I couldn't wait to have an actual bump (and not just flab), I impatiently waited to feel Paxlet moving, I've enjoyed reaching the 2nd and 3rd trimesters and I've even enjoyed the 'growing pains' that have accompanied the expanding hips and mid-section. I've been extremely lucky and had only one itty bit of spotting very early on, no nausea to really speak of, no health concerns or pregnancy concerns and not even gestational diabetes. This pregnancy has been text book perfect, in my opinion.

That is, I have thoroughly enjoyed this pregnancy, up until a few days ago. After arriving at the 40 week marker, I have found myself slowly getting fed up and frustrated with being pregnant. I just want Paxlet out! I want to meet my little guy! I know that it is 40 weeks, plus or minus two weeks, and that the due date the doctors give us is an estimated date, but I am so over it.

Each day that I wake up and feel no symptoms of impending delivery, I just feel myself getting a bit more anxious and unsettled, not to mention uncomfortable. It is getting hard to sleep comfortably at night and to get out of bed to go pee. It's not very nice to walk to the bus to take it downtown, but it isn't so nice to get in and out of the car, or driving, either. I'm definitely walking waddling much more slowly. I hate sweating, even when I just walk out to the car! Maybe all of these things have been happening for some time, but I'm only just now noticing them in a negative light because I want to be done with this part of the journey.

I'm tired of text messages, phone calls, FB messages and emails asking "How are you doing?" and "How are you feeling?" meaning they want to know if I'm still in one piece or have I given birth yet? I love my friends, but am a bit put off that they have asked for me to send a text message when we're heading to the hospital. They never did that to me when they went into labor. (Yes, I'm bitching, as Mr Siili puts it.) I appreciate that everyone is waiting for our little one to come into this world. They can't be half as excited and anxious as I am (and possibly Mr Siili). I will let the world know when Paxlet decides to grace us with his presence.

I'm sick of spending so much time at home and mostly alone. I know during the week that Mr Siili is working (thank goodness), but my own company is getting boring. There is only so much in the way of conversation that I can have with Rusty and Mansi. I know there are things I can do and should do around the house that would definitely help to pass the time,but I just can't be bothered to get up off my butt and do them. At the same time, I don't want to wander too far from home, because, well, you know...just in case.

I know Paxlet will come when he is good and ready. Unless it is getting closer to 42 weeks, then the hospital notify me to come in and start inducing me.

I'm just tired of this "waiting game".

Mini rant

Ok, this has been on my mind for a while and I just need to get it out there! I'm sure it'll annoy some, but oh well.

I can't stand the captcha text that many blogs have in order for you to leave a comment. I like leaving comments, but when I have to figure out the letters and take extra time figuring that out, sometimes I just can't be bothered. :( In addition, Blogger's captcha text has even gotten worse lately! There is now not just one word, but two AND they are very hard to read!! What I find even worse is having to type in the text and then your comment is awaiting moderation?! Why not just put all comments on moderation and forgo the captcha text altogether?

Anyway, done with the rant and stepping of my slippery soap box.

Ugh

Start rant:

Stupid fertiles.
*And my husband doesn't understand*.

:End rant.

More from me tomorrow.
*edited to add this.

Progesterone + pads = pain in the ...

Ok, so I don't really have any pain anywhere from either the progesterone or pads (or panty liners), but I liked the continuation of the P-alliteration. But it brings up the fact that I don't like progesterone, nor pads!

I don't think I have many side effects from the progesterone suppositories other than the very prominent sore breasts and hard nipples (is that one even progesterone related?). I feel quite lucky for this, but it still doesn't mean I like having the progesterone leak out of me all day long and gush at least 3 times a day. This is just not sexy!

Which leads me to the issue of pads/panty liners. I have a much bigger dislike of pads than I do of progesterone, but when using progesterone suppositories, pads are a necessary evil. Imagine, if I didn't have any pads to protect my panties and pants? I'd be one huge greasy leak. Just the thought of that makes me queasy (or maybe it was eating too much sweets today). But really, I just hate the fact of having something bulky and in between my legs all day long. (Hey, I'm not complaining about having something between my legs ever, it is just the pad thing that I'm complaining about. *wicked grin*) I've bought many different brands and types over the years and for the most part, most of them, especially the bulkier ones, just don't stay nicely in place. Or, I am constantly reminded of their presense just because they are there. I have found one brand with very thin liners that I will use at the end of AF, but they are definitely not absorbant enough for progesterone. Pads just aren't sexy either!

Does anyone else have such a dislike of pads as I do? I can't be the only one out there that prefers a tampon almost any day over a pad. What about those of you who use pads regularly, is there any particular reason you'd use them over tampons? I mean, I'd prefer to not have to use tampons or pads for 9 months, but that's another matter all together.
Please weigh in.